F. I failed. I failed to truly to take a Sabbath day this entire month of November although I committed to blogging on the topic. I craved a full rest and special day guaranteed to bring peace and contentment. Yet, there was no follow through in creating space overall in life for Sabbath to honor God and his one and only Son, Jesus, and to live purposefully.
I thrive in living the fast paced life, working on deadlines and multitasking. I am grateful that I have access and abilities to adapt to modern technology to assist in the fulfillment of this. But does my calendar reflect if I am really thriving for the God’s glory? I’m on two payrolls, active on a fundraising committee, happily working on a nonprofit pro bono project, smiling as I co-teach a weekly church support group for kids of divorce, and joyfully partake in bible study every Tuesday and Thursday night. Further, I take my roles very seriously as a loving daughter, sister, auntie, friend, roommate, and girlfriend. Plus I’m writer and blogger for Be the Proof!
As a nonprofit professional, with a spiritual gift for mercy and the repeating sin of people pleasing I often get warned of overcommittment leading to burnout but somehow I minimize the warnings or they blow up too late. And this year in this job searching and transition, when my various roles come up in conversation, people often get overwhelmed for me. I do not want to complain in the in-between and I quickly validate my busyness by quickly saying God has not told me which commitments to let go of. But what if I’m fooling myself? I know I cannot fool God. Why do these commitments and my busy calendar have such a grip on me? Why can’t I let go of adding to my calendar and set aside time for Christ. Jesus satisfies me. He is more than enough. This song is one of my favorite reminders of Christ being enough for me:
Am I lying to myself when I say I have discovered new ways to digest and meditate on the Word and honor the Sabbath? I love my 365 Bible Reading Plan via YouVersion, Daily Devotions sent to my email, receiving praise updates and prayer requests sent via WhatsApp, streaming Grace Church worship and sermons live online twice a month, reading nuggets of truth on Facebook or 140 characters bible verses and encouragement via Twitter. How do I as Christian woman do I embrace these tools and use them in a healthy way and not substitute them for the Sabbath?
As I write this blog, it sounds more like excuses a child gives to his or her teacher for late homework or poor test grade. I just want to receive an A by the Master Teacher and for him to declare “well done faithful servant” (Matthew 25:23) To be honest I even received a stomachache and headache forcing a bathroom break while writing this draft. I know I need to go into deeper repentance on this issue and take a fast to get more revelation and with His help, my heart and 2016 calendar can continue to be transformed.
I’m encouraged that God is the God of second chances and although my heart and flesh may fail he is my portion. I can draw near to Him no matter and what and take refuge in Him. (Psalm 73:23-28)I pray and wish upon our readers continued graceful diligence in honoring the Sabbath the Christmas season and this upcoming 2016. Be blessed & Merry CHRISTmas!
My name is Natalie Parragué ! I’m a Christian writer, storyteller, and philanthropist. I have a B.A.
in Journalism & Communication and an M.A. in Philanthropy & Development. I value authenticity in writing and encourage others to tell their story –being raw and real. My calling is to be a voice and speak up for the least of these worldwide. God has called me to do short term missions and international projects in India, Rwanda, and Peru (Aug 2015). God has given me the spiritual gifts of mercy and compassion and the ability to minister to people going through pain and suffering. I have a big heart for working alongside, loving and advocating for dignity and inclusion for those with disabilities in my local and global community. I’m also Auntie Natalie to beautiful Gavin, Luciana, Scarlett and a sponsor Mom to children through World Vision.