Most of the time these days, my moments for Bible study and learning are not happening in the quiet moments of life. They are happening in the busy moments filled with stories and princesses and all manner of chaos. These moments often times make me want to give up and quit. Until moments like today happen.
As I was reading through The Wellness Revelation for my second go around, my daughter came up and took my bookmark from the arm of the chair where I had placed it. It happens to be one of the awesome freebies that came with Sarah Koontz’s new study, Worthy of the Calling.
As Sarabeth picked up the bookmark, she said, “for me?” in an excited little squeal.
And in that moment I had a choice to make. I could say “no,” that it was mine. Or I could offer it to her, and start teaching her now, at age 2, that she can walk worthy of the calling God has placed on her life.
As she asked me what the picture was, and I explained the picture was a pair of shoes and attempted to explain an extremely simplified version of what walking worthy of the calling means, it was as if a lightbulb had gone off.
Sarabeth is two. She has a lifetime ahead of her with the world telling her how she should live. She will get the contradictory messages from culture and the church. The idea that she’s not good enough. That she’ll never measure up. And the church will tell her that Jesus loves her and that should be enough.
I find myself today wishing there was more continuity in the message of the church and the message of society.
It’s got me thinking about how to make this message a strong one in our home.
I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. Ephesians 4:1-3. ESV
There is so much strong language in this sentence.
Paul talks about being worthy.
Bearing one another.
These aren’t easy words to follow through on. I find myself battling their antonyms on a regular basis.
However, Paul reminds us here that we have been called to live this way. It is by living this way that we find ourselves worthy of the calling God has placed on our lives.
In a world today that is so divisive, how do we teach our children to live in unity?
It is in this way: by showing humility and gentleness when it seems counterintuitive. Showing patience and carrying the burdens of our brothers and sisters. And finding peace, commonality, and allowing Holy Spirit to keep us united.
What does this have to do with being made whole?
Since we’re in the middle of the Be Made Whole series this month, that’s a fair question to ask me. And here’s what I have found.
I am more whole, more the woman God made me when I am living out this Ephesians 4:1 call. When I recognize the peace, humility, grace, love, joy, and self-control that has already been given to me because I have the fruit of the Spirit, I am more whole.
When I remind my daughter that she has a calling on her life, I am staring in the face of part of my calling. And in order to fulfill my calling as a mother, a Bible teacher to my child, I myself must be whole first. I must know and recognize my calling. And I must be daily working out what this looks like on a practical level.
It means I ask for one minute to finish a thought in my journal and get up to dance “ballet” because my daughter asked so sweetly.
It’s seeing the joy in my daughters face when I tell her that I love her and sing “our song.”
And it’s setting aside my frustration and seeking peace when she tells me to “go away” because I’m doing a necessary thing like changing her diaper and she’s not happy about it.
When “they” tell us to live the life now that we want our kids to live, this is what it is.
Worthy of the Calling
So, as I’ve thought more about what it means to live Worthy of the Calling, I’ve had to change my mindset. As I am learning to be made whole, I’m learning that I must restructure the way that I think. To remind myself each morning that I am a child of God. Made by Him on purpose. When I remember these things, it puts me on the path towards freedom. Towards being made whole. It fills the cracks just a little bit more each day.